Change

The other day I was sifting through my purse when I found all the leftover change I had from Spain last year. It was all sitting there in a pouch and probably weighed about 2 pounds all together, and I thought to myself, "have I really been carrying around about 2 pounds in change for a year?". Of course I had switched up purses throughout the year but this was my main go-to when I was rushing out the door. As I dumped out the change onto my bed and heard them cling together I began to think of this change. I had a couple of 2 euros coins and some 1 euros and then mainly some left over "pennies" as we'd call them. Did I really skip over all this and not see this change? Then this got me thinking about realistic change, as in people changing. Once this happened I dug deep into my soul to find what I've been holding onto in my head just like I had been holding onto in this purse, a weight of what had been carrying me down and must get out. I finally emptied the change out of my purse, but as for my head I'm not sure how to go about that yet. I figured this might be a good start.

Why do people think change is so good? And why is it that most of the people who should change, never do, and the people who shouldn't change, always do? I'll never quite understand these reasonings, but I guess that's another one of life's beautiful mysteries. I've recently gone through an experience where the people you care most about in life tend to change and not in a good way. It just tends to make me think, where did I go wrong to make that person think they weren't good enough the way they were? And they may think they're changing for the better when in reality, it's so much worse than that. Yet the people who have always been told they need to change their ways, tend to stick to it and keep acting the same way in which may hurt others or turn people off. Who knows why this happens, all I can say is I'm not much of a fan of change in general.

Don't get me wrong, sometimes change can be good. Change such as moving to a new city, a change in hair color, change in style, or even change in lifestyle. The one part that bugs me the most is that drastic change that totally sweeps you off your feet, and not the good kind of sweeping. Maybe I'm just babbling or maybe I'm not making any sense, but in my head it's coming out perfectly. And this is what is helping me clear my mind, I'm beginning to realize things will happen and people will change, and there's nothing I can do about that. I guess for now I'll just hold on to whatever there is left of them and enjoy it until they're gone completely. As much as I love them, if it's what they feel is the right thing to do in their life and will make them happy, I must support... as much as it's killing me to see them do it, I will always love them.

xo,

Dirt City

Life's Like An Hourglass Glued to the Table

Anna Nalick once quoted in her infamous song 'Breathe (2am)': "'Cause you can't jump a track, we're like cars on a cable, & life's like an hourglass glued to the table, no one can find the rewind button, girl, so cradle your head in your hands, and breathe, just breathe". Little did she know at the time how much these words would speak to her listeners.

This past year has been probably one of the hardest I've been through thus far in my 20 years of existence for multiple reasons. I'm not going to get in depth about these but let's just say the night I got back from studying abroad in Seville, Spain on August 1st, 2011 everything in my life was going to be different. These are some personal issues I'm not about to get into on a blog but it made me think of this song every time something this past year has gone wrong. I play Anna's words over and over again until it hits me, and it does every time. Life isn't going to be easy and it's going to be a struggle, but you learn lessons as you go through it. Her words "and breathe, just breathe" make me so much more calm as I do just cradle my head in my hands and breathe. I recommend this to anyone who feels they are going through a hard time because it makes you realize that one day it will pass. You're probably thinking I'm crazy or just venting but after listening to this song again today after being completely stressed about all my school work I felt calm and serene, and I sat down and calmly finished everything, just like it should be. In this first blog I would like to share a little bit about my life in Lubbock, Texas, or as I like to call it, Dirt City and if you've ever been to Lubbock you would know exactly why.

After graduating a year early from Samuel V. Champion High School I made my way to Texas Tech University where I've planned on graduating in May of 2013. I've been almost every possible Mass Communications major you can think of. Starting out Journalism and switching to Public Relations, then Advertising and now finally Media Strategies. I guess saying I have no clue what I want to do with my life would be an understatement. 

I've been blonde most of my life but I've recently decided to become Brunette, and needless to say I absolutely love it. The first year at Tech was a crazy one, that's for sure. I would love to say how great I did in school and how much education I received, but who am I kidding? Enjoying every day and every night of my Freshman year was accomplished very well. I made friends who will be here for a lifetime and lost friends who weren't there like I thought they were.

In the summer of 2011 I studied in Seville, Spain, but I'll talk more about that at a different time. While there I visited my second favorite city in the world, Paris. The fashion, the people, the food, and the whole atmosphere made me fall completely in love. The only other place I have ever felt more home is in New York City. I will go back to Paris one day. Also while in Europe I traveled to Portugal, but like I said I'll get back to that at a different time.

This past spring semester I acquired an internship with a company based out of New York called Skinny Ms. Most of the work I did was online since I was still attending school. Skinny Ms. is an upcoming health business in which provides great work outs and healthy recipes, in turn for me interning I actually lost about 15 pounds in the last year which made me very happy! As I said before, my ultimate home is New York City. I dream of the day I'll step out of my townhouse onto 5th Avenue and hail down a taxi cab to take me to the next glamorous thing I have going on in my life. New York has always been my first love, and always will be. Nothing will stand in my way of getting there.

I tend to have a strange obsession with Chanel, and if you're around me long enough you'll figure that out. The first item I ever bought of Chanel were gorgeous earrings in which dangled from my ears so lightly. They were absolutely beautiful and from first glance I was in love. Since then I've made purchases of shoes and handbags, my other two faves. I pride myself on my interest on boots and especially in the Chanel boots, if I could own about every pair I would. The only thing that might be a close second to my life for Chanel would have to be Marc Jacobs or Michael Kors, I can never get enough of them as well.

Like I said before, I'll describe some other life aspects later on, this is just kind of a summary of where I'm at right now. From San Antonio, to Lubbock, to Spain, back to Lubbock, and now onto New York. Life has so many adventures in store for me, I can't wait to find out what's next.

xo,

Dirt City